Wild Thoughts & Imaginations.

Raya 2011

2011-09-05T15:25:00.002+08:00

Salam All,

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin. Lately mmg malas berblog sgt. maybe malas dah nk cerita apa2. Harini da seminggu raya. Too bad xdak org bagi duit raya. eh. ada. tp nk lagi. kesian sy yg tidak mendapat bonus spt org kerajaan tersebut.

Raya this year ok saja. nothing extraordinary happen. as usual, da 2 tahun raya bgn lambat. hehehe. mlm berjaga mmg laa kn. so pergi raya here and there. baju raya pun x berapa nk byk. just ade kasut lg 2 pasang belum pakai. hehehe.

But sadly on 3rd raya, while we were at Muar, i get a called from Mak, she said wanna go back to Melaka on the next morning. And i ask why coz baru je kot sampai dr mlk tu pownn.. she said Pak Lang, husband to Mak Lang at Kuala Sg Baru just passed away ptg tu. Innalillah. I was quite shocked. Coz a day before that baru pergi melawat/beraya at rumah Mak Lang. Mmg Pak Lang ada sakit, tp xde pun mcm nazak/tenat mase kami beraya. Just abah ckp, arwah x byk berckp. Just byk senyum je and tgk smua org.

Well, mati tu x tunggu sape2 kn?? x dpt byg if it happens to the one yg close to me. haihhh. kite yg hidup ni teruskn hidup and kumpul laa byk pahala and buat ibadat selagi boleh. and alhamdulillah, berkat Ramadhan yg lepas ni, i'm wearing a Hijab now. Insya allah will stay this way. at least terkurg dosa yg satu tu. skrg ni pun sy sedaya upaya menepis dugaan syaitan. coz seriously, sejak2 Ramadhan da berlalu, ada a few dugaan. Kuatkn laa hatiku ya Allah.

Raya korg mcm mana pulak? hope nothing bad happen yah.

Be cool. Be safe. Be good.

Much love,

Afza

Salam Ramadhan

2011-07-29T23:50:00.002+08:00

Eh. belum start puasa laa awk. sabar ya. hehe.

moga Ramadhan tahun ni akan bawa lebih keberkatan pada diri sendiri dan anda semua.

Tahun ni punya puasa InsyaAllah, akan ada sedikit perubahan kot.

Xtau laa mcm mana. moga berjaya Afza.

owh baru prasan, tahun ni mcm 1 bulan, 1 post. tu pun kalau rajin.

ni pun td terklik dkt bookmark sendiri punya blog. hehehe.

kepada mereka yg kenal sy, sy minta byk2 kalau ada terbuat salah, terkasar bahasa, terburuk laku dan sebagainya. sy seorg manusia biasa, x lari dari salah silap.

kita hidup kena saling maaf memaafi. InsyaAllah hidup akan tenang. kalau ada rasa marah, benci, sila buang jauh2. it's not good for our health. seriously.

ok laa. nanti taip lagi.

Much love,

Afza

Hye

2011-06-07T22:52:00.002+08:00

Hello. as usual, lame da x update blog. malas. xde ape nk crite. byk sebenanye benda dlm kepale ni. tp xpe laa. maybe it's best to leave it there. coz no one care. and no one can help.

feeling mmg da mcm mix fm. mungkin mmg boleh gila kalau x dibendung. but insya allah, i can still control it. no matter how hurt i am, i'll not give up on life.

well, ttyl.

much love,

Afza

The Pretty Chick

2011-04-06T12:02:00.002+08:00

Please do follow my on9 shop blog yah.

TQ.

The Pretty Chick *Preloved Items

Be Pretty baby.

Puff Sleeve Small Vest/Jacket

2011-04-06T10:48:00.002+08:00

Hye. am selling this jacket for RM50.00. it'll fit best from M to L i guess (UK10 to UK12). oh this is a preloved item. not a brand new, but still in a good condition and it still look like a new one.

Reason for me of letting this go : Sadly i cant fit into this anymore :(

If you are interested with this item, do send me an email at afzashapii@yahoo.com along with your detail.

T&C
1. First PAY first serve basis.

2. Only for serious buyers and NO FUSSY buyers please.

3. Items sold are not refundable & exchangeable.

p/s - the photo above is not mine. but it look same like the above.

Hip tapered jeans

2011-04-06T10:23:00.007+08:00

Hye. am selling this hip tapered jeans for RM50.00. fyi, this is preloved item and it will fit perfectly for plus size people. and no worries, it still look new. this hip tapered jeans is best fit for XL to XXL (UK12 to UK14 only). it is a little stretchable. it has 2 backpockets, and the 6 buttons in front are all functional. you can wear it best with cute tank tops.

Reason for me of letting this go : It's quite singkat for me (I'm 166cm tall). hehe.

If you are interested with this item, do send me an email at afzashapii@yahoo.com

T&C
1. First PAY first serve basis.

2. Only for serious buyers and NO FUSSY buyers please.

3. Items sold are not refundable & exchangeable.

p/s - the photo above is not mine. but it look same like the above.

Tolong lah

2011-03-29T23:02:00.002+08:00

Flu berterusan. x suka. x suka bila sakit. esp flu. sbb bersin2 mata akan jd lagi sepet.

aduhai demam/flu/sakit tekak/batuk or whatsoever yg berkaitan, please jgn dtg this week boleh? let me settle all my stuffs first. please,please,please.

sy x mintak byk. ini je. dtg laaa lain kali. please.

Been featured uolss.

2011-03-29T19:16:00.005+08:00

hye uolsss. i've been featured here. on this supercool online shopping blog.

Jo Fashion House

just click on the link yah. tq.

and this is the fb link : FB Jo Fashion House

this is what I call cool.

ttyl.

Hello

2011-03-29T19:08:00.003+08:00

hye readers. da 1++ month x update blog. well i've been busy with works. cewahh. bajet kau ade readers kn afza? hahaha. there's so much to tell till idk where to start. well, just enjoy the picture i put up there. woots.

ROAR!!!!~

On the Run

2011-01-20T23:26:00.001+08:00

pernah pergi on the run esso? ade jual mcm2. ayam harus laa lg murah dr ayamas. tp denga cerita org keje kt tempat ayam tu kerek. kesian dia.

ok nk promote air kopi dia ja. serius terbaik. td baru beli yg large. hehe. n dah habis pown. dahlia n ian sibuk gak nk minum. but seb bek depa da tdo. kang x pasey2 auntiechu kene blame.

oops nk amek gamba, air da abes plak. tinggal gelas dia ja. hihi. kesian dia.

so ape korg buat sempena thaipusam tahun ney? ok bye.

Myvians

2011-01-12T00:04:00.002+08:00

sy nk tanya, anda smua x suka gunakn hon ke?
bkn apa, da 2 org Myvians sy ride kete bersama, both x suka hon2.
instead of they tekan hon, sy yg dok seblah driver akan tekan hon.
maaf laa kalau tgn sy pernah tersentuh mane2 tempat yg x patut.

ini disebabkan tindakan refleksi spontan sy bila nmpk ade kete main masuk je jln tanpa signal, moto yg tibe2 nk menghimpit, kete yg main klua simpang tanpa pandang kanan kiri etc.

tapi biasenye mmg manage laa tekan hon. geram dowh. so biase nye org yg kene hon ney akan buat palat balik. cth, memperlahankn kete, main break2, pandang x puas hati etc. lagi. gile gelabah bkn?

so sila laa sapa2 jwb kemusykilan sy.

terima kasih.

Maxis - Maxis for Personal Use - BlackBerry

2011-01-11T14:57:00.001+08:00

Maxis - Maxis for Personal Use - BlackBerry

11/1/11

2011-01-11T14:20:00.003+08:00

hai. selamat petang. harini 11/1/11/
special ke? tapi cube kalau nama penuh dia.
11/1/2011.
x best jugak knn? xde special pown.

ok tgh boring xtao ape nk buat. da malas buat aktiviti memikir.
ape pown x dpt. sobs.

k laa. nk pergi kacau boss kecik.

haha.

Need You

2011-01-11T12:52:00.002+08:00

I need you.

that's it.

Being ignored is not a cool thing

2011-01-10T11:11:00.004+08:00

the title say it all. get it??

it's not cool to not to reply someone's text.
it's not cool to not answering someone's phone.
it's not cool to ignore someone when they are waiting for u.

just a simple word like ok, hello, hi, etc can bring sunshine to someone's life.
to hell what already happen on the past.

i expect nothing much. i just want us to be like before.

i need you.

0_0

Snow Patrol Run Lyrics

2011-01-09T20:17:00.001+08:00

-______________-

go shawty. it's my birthday.

2011-01-09T19:58:00.003+08:00

yeah. am officially adding one more number to my age.
(-.-)

like wtv. it's just a number right?
nothing will change. except for maybe there are things that i need to change like :

1. be more serious *in everything*
2. should be more wiser. *cmon girl. u r a big girl*
3. stop depending on others. *coz when they left u, ur whole world will be upside down*
4. put more smile on ur face *u r beautiful. wanna be like gwyneth kn? haha*

owh btw, it's already 2011. wow. a brand new year. so this is my first blog for this year. y on earth i chose this day to blogging?? only god knows why.

there's something i cant explain. maybe idk how. maybe i'm afraid about what others will think. eh. hellooooo afza, since when did u think about others? owh. talking about this. i'd like to add more about what i need to change :

5. stop talking. start listening. *coz when i talk, lots of people will get hurt*

i'm sorry. i guess i still didnt act based on my age.
owh well, this year is not the best birthday ever. i doesnt feel happy at all.
maybe i expect too much.
and in the end, i end up like this.

so the lesson for today is, expect nothing.

please bear this on your mind.

tq.

I Live My Life For You - Firehouse

2010-12-27T23:53:00.001+08:00

You know you're everything to me and I could never see
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart

I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you

I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together

I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you

I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you

I live my life for you

nice song. imy syg!~

2 Hari Lagi

2010-12-27T22:52:00.004+08:00

hye. 2 hari lagi ye.
cant wait. it's our day.
hehe.

mmuahxx.

Faizal Tahir - Hanyut (Acoustic Version with Lyrics)

2010-11-11T22:21:00.002+08:00

8 November

2010-11-08T11:08:00.004+08:00

hello. slamat pagi.

today i woke up around 5 kot. and texting the BF. and he text back. so we text each other and i fall asleep again while waiting for him. then suddenly i'm in other world. i had this bad2x dream. i woke up crying for a few minutes. and i text him again. the dream is about him. but he is with someone else. he seems happy in that dream. urmm. pas bgtao dia pasal mimpi tu,dia call. maybe nk kurgkn gundah dlm hati ney kot. then sambung msg2 balik. suddenly me crying again. and this time agak lame. sbb bf call balik and me still cant stop crying. what if those things happen?? mimpi mainan tidur kn syg?? i hope those thing wont happen to us. i never had this kind of dream b4 dis. sumpah x pernah. u r the 1st. da laa lately me slalu mimpi u. me miss u too much. too damn much syg. me x tipu. i have love u and i cant turn back. i need u all the way with me.

and betul kn me ckp dulu, kite x boleh jauh. i think this it what happen when we r far apart syg. dgn org lain x pernah mcm ney. ney baru x jumpe seminggu, rase mcm da lame gile. i never felt this way before.

is this what people call LOVE??

nnt kite date yeh. please sabar.

i love you.

Yours sincerely,
Afza

dah November

2010-11-06T13:48:00.003+08:00

hello. da lame x ngarut2, repek2 here. padehal byk je cerita. hee. tp ney tatao pown nk repek ape. just nk update blog. last post on september. pasal bf. heee. imy bf!~ da 2month++ dgn dia. am looking forward for moreeeeee wonderful journey with u syg. yayy. me love ya. sgt2.

haritu pergi spore. bestttttt. nnt nk pegi lagi. some things there murah2 dari dkt sini. sgt2 rambang mata tgk bags there. air avokado 1st time minum haritu. rase dia mcm urmmmmm. sedapppppppp. nk air avokado lggg. pleasee. nnt nk kumpul duit lg. pi spore.nk keje kt spore laaa mcm ney. heee.

bulan ney mcm akan busy. serius. MAHA is around the corner. start on 26th. meh laa dtg ramai2. ade exhibition. mcm2 ada. if u r into things for pertanian, meh dtg. it'll be held at my workplace at MAEPS (Malaysia Agro Exposition Park Serdang). Nearby UPM and Mardi. kalau tau jln nk pegi Putrajaya or Hosp Serdang, mmg da dkt laa nk sampai tempat tu. mari laa lihat kebizian sy nnt. skg ney pown da start bz sket. ari2 nk meeting. haih.

i am superhungry now. bf sila laa bgn. nk dating.
urmm.
me miss u.

ok. nnt update lg.
bye.

BF

2010-09-04T17:16:00.000+08:00

imysdm!~

*buat muke geram*

i'll stay with u no matter what.

Rayban Sunglasses

2010-08-16T21:19:00.015+08:00

-Shooter Mercury-

-Diamond Mercury-

-Aviator Mercury-

-Aviator Goldframe Dark Green Lense-

-Aviator Gold Lense-

-Aviator Black-

-Aviator Maroon-

-Diamond Gold-

-Aviator Gold Lense-

-Shooters Gold-

*just click on the image for clearer view.
TYPE : DIAMONDS, SHOOTER & AVIATOR.
LENSE : GLASS G15,CROMAX-DRIVING SERIES "100% UV PROTECTOR" (boleh tengok matahari / drive dalam hujan lebat clear).
SIZE : 62mm (sesuai untuk semua jenis muka)
FRAME : OUTDOORSMAN,GOLDMAN,& ANY TYPE. *bingkai besi, italian made (just like the original one).

-Barang gred AAA, 98% sama macam original.
-1 Set dengan Rayban Hardcase,Kain Lap Rayban.

-Harga ikut type :
DIAMOND = RM90.00
SHOOTER = RM90.00
AVIATOR = RM75.00

for more information, email me at afzashapii@yahoo.com

thx.

T&C
1. First PAY first serve basis.

2. Only serious buyers.

3. Once confirmations have been made, no back outs is allowed. If you do not want to purchase the particular item, please send me an email or text to cancel the order.

4. Buy at your own risk.

5. Items are 100% new and in good condition.

6. Items sold are not refundable & exchangeable.

Cake

2010-08-16T11:06:00.003+08:00

ok, tajuk xde kene mengene dgn ape yg ditulis di bwh.

ya ya. sy di office now. woots. ney laa dia. PA berjaya. x bwat keje kn. kau update blog plak. boss kt dlm denga bunyi ketak ketuk aku tekan keyboard, mesti igt aku bwat kerja. hahaha. ya ya. sy bwat kerja otak. so syhhh. biasa laa. everyone need their own space. cewahhh.

hari ney isnin. isnin is a gloomy day. pfft. da laa sampai ofis lambat. tu laa. meleceh lagi. pdn muka. so esok tolong laaa kesemangatan kerajinan tu ada utk bersiap dgn cepat. haihhh. pastu idong ney nk soksek2x lagi. penat laa. so baik laa. nnt sy abeskn antibiotik lagi 2 bijik tu mlm ney jugak. n mlm ney berazam tdo awal. i need my beauty sleep please. pffft.

mlm ney tv tatao ade crite ape. layankn je laa. tapi biase hari kerja, tdo awal punye. sbb mmg automatically mengantok. maaf laa mak adik da lame x pergi terawih. bak kate mak, "pergi mase penutup je laa nanti". sarcastic kn? haha. itu laa mak. nanti laa. akan ada hari2 rajin. ney kepala dok pening gila. tatao pasepa.

brgkali penangan Kokuryu Super Summer Cake oleh iefa.

hahaha.

bye.

Spartacus : Blood and Sand

2010-08-14T23:55:00.004+08:00

woots. mari tonton Spartacus : Blood and Sand. layan owh. it's on cinemax which is 412 on astro. best owh. spartacus ney hensem. bods dia uhhhh. aummm!~ and make me go "slurppppppp". hahaha. gilos. saje je. and like the name, org bijak pandai akan tao cerita ney is about gladiators. biasa laa. fight2, darah is everywhere in this story. sape2 lemah smgt x yah laa weyy. sex pown ade jugak. tapi tunjuk kt tv. harus laa cut enn?? kene tgk dgn minda terbuka laa. yg cut2 ney bwat spoiled movies je. bwat xde mood. bwat rase movie ney sux abes. mcm smlm tgk punisher : war zone ngan iman. byk sgt cut nye. tah ape2. pfftt. ok spartacus da start.

bye.

Ramadhan 2010

2010-08-14T20:23:00.003+08:00

hye semua yg baca. selamat berpuasa yah. moga ramadhan tahun ney bawa byk rahmat dan keberkatan kepada kita semua. mari laa sama2 amek kesempatan di bln yg mulia ney. amek kesempatan ape yah? beribadat laaa weyy. apa lagi. kita masing2 pergi xtao bile. tadi pagi baca suratkabar. ade ribut teruk kt jasin smlm. subhanallah. takutnye. what if those things happen to us? x sempat nk bertaubat kot kalau byk sgt dosa. maybe time tu akan terbyg dosa2 yg pernah bwat. well, hari2 sebenarnye terigt. mintak2 pasney, berjaya jauhkn diri dr dosa2 besar. aminnn!~

owh. ade promo Legenda Budak Setan kt prima ney. S**t! kenape fk macam hensem habis ney? pffft!~ i'm not his fan ok. tolong lah. but sumpah dia mcm hensem plak dlm LBS yg drama ney. rambut style habis. roaaR!~ n i guess, i had a thing dkt tall guys. i mean, supertall guys ok. bcoz i'm consider quite tall also (for girls). woots.

ok back to topic Ramadhan, nk ckp. jgn laa ikut nafsu sgt. nafsu sy maksudkn is nafsu everything ok. bile pegi bazar ramadhan tu, igt2 laa. jgn laa nk dok beli semua. ini peringatan utk diri sendiri juga. ikut nafsu, bdn binasa. cewahh. poys laa pulak. haha. pastu yg gatal2 tu, cepat2 laa nikah. at least nikah dulu. ney korg ney. isk2. pastu da termengandung, pastu buang lak baby tu. bodoh betul laa. nk buang2 baby. tah ape2. buat dosa besar sbb "main" satu hal. pastu buang lak baby. siap bunuh lagi baby tu. mmg xde otak ke ape korg ney? memalukn diri sendiri je. ke mmg x malu da? tapi kau x malu ke dgn Tuhan? x takut dgn balasan? urmm. ok, sy pown x laaa baik mane pown, tapi.. kene pandai pk laa beb. ape gune tuhan bg kau otak. duhh. ramai sgt manusia bodoh dlm dunia ney skg. i'm surrounded by stupid people. hahaha.

da laa. nanti bebel lagi. layan movie jap tgk si comels. woots.

happy2. bye.

Just A Face In The Crowd by Car Crash Hearts

2010-07-17T22:42:00.000+08:00

Just A Face In The Crowd by Car Crash Hearts

DANGGG!~

2010-06-19T22:31:00.001+08:00

da silap hari.
hahahahaha.

sgt sengal.

20 JUN 2010 ye.

tq.

3OH!3 - MY FIRST KISS feat. Ke$ha (Official Music Video)

2010-06-17T00:20:00.000+08:00

Forza Italia!~

2010-06-16T16:15:00.005+08:00

Woot woot. World Cup da start weyy. last week lagi da start. kenape laa aku bangang sgt lambat post entry world cup ney? hahaha. xpe laaa. but still aku blom lg in the mood layan bola gila2. baru suam2 kuku. tu pown suam kejap je. ekekeke.

As usual, my team for world cup kali ney is ITALY . as yg korg boleh nampak, di gambar tersebut aku memakai baju ITALY bernombor 3. tapi maaf syg ku ITALY , baju ney da hilang, so i guess u xkn jd champion dis year. ini je laa yg termampu i bg u. setelah 4 tahun terpisah, kite berjumpa kembali kn ITALY syg. haha. tapi maaf lagi skali, i x tgk pown match u haritu. i da suruh org kejutkn, tapi i sgt mengantok. sbb i kena kerja awal pagi kn? hope u faham sgt2. hahahaha. i nk kumpul duit, i nk pergi jumpe u nnt. i need u badly.

hahaha. da mcm siri bercakap dgn org gila dah. tao laa gamba menghadap dinding. tu siri bercakap ngan dinding. cerita lain ye.

To ITALY : i x kisah laa kalau u x champ, tapi jgn laaa sampai memalukn diri sgt yah. tapi, BUFFON*love* x ley main da ea? :(

Whatever happen, tetap ITALY laaa weyy.

FORZA ITALIA!~

:D

UK oh UK!

2010-06-15T11:17:00.003+08:00

hello. ariney 2nd day my boss EL. hariney mengantok. xtao nape. x tgk bola pown. x sedar langsung. bgn2 tros check FIFA nye web. ak enna........ seri 1-1? duhh. patut nye bole ngap je team2 dlm grup dia tu. isk. apa nk jd ney? xmao juara lagi ka sbb baju ITALY i da hilang? auwww. hahaha.

tetibe terigt UK. aritu b4 dpt kerja ney, da plan nk pegi UK. further study kt sana. but too bad, kite hanya bole merancang, tuhan tentukn everything kn. but dont get me wrong. too bad bkn bermaksud x suke ok. i'm grateful with what i have now. *smiles*

just terpk, kalau dpt pegi UK kn best. supposed pergi bulan 9 ney. tapi tu laa. nk wat caner? redha je. mak ckp, kalau nk pergi jugak boleh. tapi kene kahwin dulu. duhhhh. so saper nk kawin ngan sy?? haha. sengal neyy. best kn kalau dpt pergi, shopping murah, kalau kerja pown they pay so much more dr dkt sini. kerja bodo2 je, gaji tinggi. kt sini kau kerja hempas pulas mati2 pown x kn dpt mcm tu. pfft. reason nk pegi uk pown konon2 sbb nk tinggalkn bumi malaysia ney. but i guess i'm stucked to it. xpe laa. move with the flow kn. layan kn jer.

so urmm. xtao.
bye.

The All-American Rejects - It Ends Tonight

2010-06-14T00:49:00.001+08:00

repekan June

2010-06-13T15:29:00.002+08:00

hello. lame x update blog. mcm malas laa. ke sebenonye da lupe kewujudan blogspot. hahaha. hariney hari ahad. sgt panas. tadi klua tgh hari nk pegi lunch. angah ajak pegi Yati Ayam Percik. tapi last2 x mkn sbb malas nk mkn nasik kerabu tu. mengade enn. tadi ade abg2 basikal kt kedai tu. auuwww. ade laa 2,3 yg manage to catch my eye. depa senyum, kite layan laaa. senyum laa balik. x baik sombong enn?? salu mcm ney. bile muke x mekap, time tu laa ade org nk pandang2. time mekap2 xde plak. hahaha. garang kot muke bile mekap. aumm.

update with my life plak. err. nothing much happen. but now da jd PA Senior Manager. mase mule2 tu rase mcm uhh, ooo, urrmmm. but now, layan kn je laaa. i got a brand new netbook now. thx to angah. murah rezki ye. aminnn. so sape2 mao berwebcam. ayuhh. tapi harap maklum ye, xde makne aku nk mekap2 bagai bile berwebcam nnt. so jgn laa terpranjat kalau tgk muke aku mcm monster lochness. hahahaha. cool kn??

sy rindu kwn2 sy. tapi tah laa. da lain. sy da lain, dorg pown da lain kot. paham kenape dorg lain. maaf. tape. tetap syg korg sampai aku mati weyy. serious.

i do realized, people always come n go. mmg da biase sgt kot pasal benda ney. pade korg yg masih ade kt sisi ney, trime kasih byk2. aku slalu messed up things. ampuni daku.

ape lagi aku nk tulis?? xtao laa. nanti ade idea lain aku update.

tq.

Repekan

2010-05-01T01:33:00.002+08:00

hai. dah 1 mei 2010. wow. sekejap je da nk setengah tahun kn? ade ke azam aku yg da tercapai? oops. kejap. ape azam aku ea? haha. aku rase xde. aku jenis move with the flow je. maklum laa. aku bkn jenis org nk azam/plan2 bagai. sbb aku tao diri aku, aku akan buat something tu bila aku nk jer. n biasenye pas aku da ade plan2 bagai, last2 benda tu terkubur je. da brape byk kubur da aku buat. so aku x pedulik laa kalau korg kate aku xde wawasan, xde cita2. hey!~ dengar sini. aku nk berkata dn bkn marah. sila jgn salah faham pula yah. kau jgn laa membabi buta nk judge2 org. kalau kau perfect xpe. masalahnya, nobody's perfect laa weyy. aku tao diri aku, aku tao apa yg aku nk. so kau x payah laa sibuk2. perlu ke aku nk bgtao kau apa yg aku nk?? kau bole dptkn ke ape yg aku nk? ye. aku simpan byk benda dlm fikiran dan hati aku. aku malas nk cerita. kau tao laa perangai manusia, nanti akan berkata kata. benda baik pown org mengata, apatah lagi yg buruk. so biar laa, kalau jadi, jadi laa. x jadi pown xpa. tu org kata xda rezeki. mungkin rezeki ade kt tempat lain pule. kite mane nk taokn ape yg da ditetapkn oleh Tuhan. trime seadanya. ye mungkin korg akan ckp aku xnk usaha. maybe betul. sbb aku jenis puas ati ape yg aku ade skrg. aku tao aku boleh jadi lebih baik dari skrg. tapi nanti dulu, mase tu belum sampai. aku xnk tergopoh gapah. last2 nanti takut ape pown xde. so aku sebenanye merupakn seorg yg slow n steady. lek2 lu, sap kok lu.

kt sini aku nk tegur, kite kwn2, biar laa betul ikhlas berkwn. bile kau da ade gf/bf, jgn laa lupe kwn2. knape perlu nk lupe kwn2 bile kau da ade that someone? mcm mane aku nk explain bg korg paham ye. bile kau sedih dgn partner korg, kwn2 korg carik kn. bila da ok ngan partner kau, kau lupekn balik kwn2 kau. kenape mcm tu? sbb friends forever ke? bullshit!~ kau tau x mcm mane kecilnya hati kwn tu bila kau bwat mcm tu? ye aku tao kau x tao sbb kau tgh happy dgn partner kau. pernah x kau fikir ape kwn kau fikir bila dulu korg rapat gila, skrg berckp pown da boleh kira dgn jari di tgn belah kiri, tu pown x habis kira. haih. sedih laaa tgk persahabatan zmn skrg ney. lagi aku nk tegur, kalau kau nk bergurau, tgk laa keadaan dan caranya. kdg2 kita ada harinya yg diri x stabil fikirannya. kau cuba laa letakkn diri kau di tempat dia. kau pown tao smua org caranya x sama kn? wahh. tiba2 aku taip guna bahasa baku plak. sgt comel ini. so lepas ney, sebelum kau bwat something, tolonglah berfikir terlebih dahulu. kau jgn igt smua org sama mcm kau. itu kau mmg da silap besar. kdg2, benda yg kita rasa remeh, mungkin pada org lain benda tu merupakn satu perkara yg besar. mcm aku ckp, kita manusia ney mcm2 ragam dan prangai ada. mulut mungkin kata lain, hati kata lain.

serius, aku malas nk berfikir byk. aku x suke nk semakkn kepala otak aku dgn benda2 yg x best. mmg byk benda x best. but, kene laa positif sikit kn. tadi sebelum aku on laptop, aku pandang langit. cantik. bulan bersinar dgn terangnya. aku suka bulan. dulu2 bila aku tgk bulan, aku akan share dgn someone. tapi skrg, hurm. mungkin lebih elok kalau aku seorg kn. aku pown da malas nk kacau kwn2 sgt. aku tao kwn2 busy. n aku pown da x peduli kalau ada antara korg yg da lupa aku. friends come n go. that's it. ape lagi aku nk merepek ea? aku pown xde idea da.

nanti laaa kalau ade idea lain, aku merepek lagi.

ily!~

repekan

2010-04-16T20:48:00.005+08:00

xnk ckp byk. sbb nk tulis byk. haha.

xde laa. saje nk post blog.

tapi hati kosong.

kosong sgt.

well, i guess i chose the wrong one again.

mungkin sbb tu rase kosong.

haha.

ney mmg merepek abes.

ok bye.

repekan spt biase

2010-04-14T15:48:00.003+08:00

hye. kaki aku bengkak plus gatal2. pelik kn? jgn tanya kenapa. sbb aku xde jawapan. aku pegi klinik smlm pown doc xde jawapan. just dia kata jgn mkn udang + ketam. ye doc, mmg aku x mkn benda2 tu da. x cayer tanye kwn2 yg pernah lepak bersama aku. pastu dia bg 2 ubat mkn plus ubat sapu laa kn. harini pagi aku pegi lagi, sbb amek mc. mak ckp mcm da susut sikit bengkak tu. ke dia nk sedapkn ati aku tatao laa. sbb aku tgk tetap sama ja plus masih gatal2. harini punya gatal terhebat dari smlm sbb da naik ke pergelangan kaki. mcm mana tu kwn2? owh lupa, pagi tadi aku pegi klinik doc tu check aku. *do take notes bkn doc smlm ya*. dia check temperature aku, amek blood pressure smua, but dia still xde jawapan kepada punca kebengkakan kaki aku ney. pelik lagi bkn? dia pesan kalau ubat da abes still x ok gak, dtg laa lagi klinik. ye, aku tao tu.

punca jd mlm isnin haritu. aku rase laa. aku pegi satu tempat tu *xnk dinyatakn di mana* dgn kwn2 aku. mase tu da gatal2. aku biase laa, suke ignore benda2 kecil, aku just pk "owh, nyamuk laa tu.".biase laa. org berpikiran positif kn? haha. hari selasa pergi kerja as usual, aku rasa gatal2 sikit. and as usual, aku ignore juga. balik kerja tu sampai rumah aku rasa gatal gila punya gatal. grrr. aku pegi toilet. tgk mcm lain mcm. sbb kaki aku pown ade bekas kasut yg seblom ney x pnah ade. aku tergerak "kaki aku bengkak ke?". aku turun tanye mak, mak kate ye kaki aku bengkak. aku tanye dia boleh x nk rendam kaki dlm air suam. mak kate boleh, letak garam skali. so aku pown amek air dlm flask + garam bwk naik atas curah dlm baldi. sambil2 rendam kaki, aku on the phone dgn qayezze. *dia gay ok." biasa laa. merepek2x pastu aku rase air x brape nk panas da. so aku ckp kt qayezze aku nk turun nk amek air panas lagi. *dlm erti kate lain aku nk letak fon*. hahaha. turun2 mak kate kaki aku bengkak makin besar. daymmm. mak tros ckp, pegi klinik laa. so aku kn anak yg baik, pegi laa klinik ngan abah.

balik klinik dpt bebel ngan mak mlm tu. mak ckp lain kali maghrib2 jgn klua. at least balik rumah dulu, mlm nk klua kejap boleh laa. mak ckp lagi aku da terlanggar tempat "benda tu". mak ada mention nama benda tu. tapi aku xtao apa. aku search kt google pown x jumpa. mak pesan, lainkali kalau baru pergi tempat kite x biase, jgn lupe bace al-fatihah, ayat kursi. baik mak. adik igt da. mak siap ckp "tu laa, slalu xnk denga ckp mak." mlm tadi borak ngan iera fakhira pown kiteorg ade mention pasal benda tu. anak derhaka. haha. aku harap kau da ok babe.

pagi tadi seblom subuh aku denga mak tanya nk cuti ke hari ni. aku tros laa ckp ya. sbb kaki aku still bengkak. aku takut bile pergi kerja, nanti tetiba bengkak lagi trok. sorry korg, sy bukan saje xnk dtg tao. pagi tadi mak bebel2x. aku x suka denga mak bebel. tapi biase laa, mak kn, she wants the best for anak2x. aku da faham da. tapi mmg betul laa ape mak bebel2 pagi tadi. dia bkn bebel2 for no reason. tapi tibe2 aku denga mak ckp, "tgk laa adik tu, da kene gangguan syaitan.". hahaha. sumpah aku tergelak everytime bila mak ckp camtu. ini bermaksud aku x percaya benda tu ke ea? aku pown xtao laa. balik klinik tadi mak ckp lagi "tu baru sikit tuhan tunjuk sbb lawan ckp mak.". duii. so kawan2 please be alert ya, nk ajak aku klua pasney make sure seblom kul 4 petang or lepas pukul 7.55 malam.

so hariney aku mc, tadi tdo jap. bgn sbb mak ajak mkn. sempat balik klinik td aku masak lauk pucuk ubi masak lemak nangka. tu ke name lauk tu ea? dia masak lemak. ada pucuk ubi n nangka. bestt. ade sambal blacan plak, ikan kering + sambal ikan bilis. pergh. terbaik weyy.

ok laa. xtao nk repek ape lagi. tapi hariney aku da berpijak di bumi nyata kembali.

p/s - mak ckp sakit aku sakit misteri. bile nk insaf ney za?

repekan lagi

2010-04-03T23:23:00.002+08:00

rase nk mencarut. tapi nk mencarut ape ea mlm ney? xde idea. tapi terase nk post something here. harini aku bgn awal. awal sgt. dlm pukul 6 camtu. pelik, pelik. hari cuti lak aku bgn awal kn. bgn2 tu tuka tempat tdo *masuk bilik laa*. bdn cam biase laa. mlm2 jadi penderma darah berjaya kepade nyamuk. masuk bilik on9 jap. merepek repek ngan si pelat sbb dia ade on9 pagi2 buta. pastu tetiba ngantok balik. so tidur laa.

skrg bila tidur, kerap mimpi merepek. sgt merepek. mcm aku masuk dlm satu dunia lain. pagi tadi pas tidur balik tu, aku mimpi ade org jepun laa, kene setup meeting laa, paling x ley bla, ade sorg kwn ney ade superpower menghasilkn petir. tapi org jahat da dpt dia utk gunakn dia sbb nk takluk bumi. tak ke pelik tu? haha. hari sebelum tu plak, aku mimpi jd model video klip kot. ade lagi 2 org, x igt sape. sorg baju putih, sorg baju hitam. mungkin itu petanda si jahat dan si baik. mase aku mimpi tu aku rase kul 7 lebey pagi. sbb aku denga bunyi alarm lagu bloody beetroots aku dlm mimpi tu. pastu dlm mimpi tu ade someone angkat aku, dia mcm2 buai2 kn aku. lalu aku nampak langit. kt langit tu ade tulis thank you, i love you. pastu aku terjaga. ahahaha. nk cerita pasal mimpi mmg xkn abes. sumpah aku slalu mimpi merepek mcm tu. pnah gak mimpi puting beliung. tapi da lame x mimpi merepek. minggu ney laa tetibe mimpi2 tu dtg balik. padehal mane ade pk ape2 pown seblom tdo. mmg x sempat pown nk pk ape2.

mungkinkah Afza in Wonderland? hahaha.

ok. tadi ade kwn tanye aku. kenape x cari bf baru? haha. sng ke weyy? b4 ngan baby, last aku ade bf was on 2005 ok. sgt ssh. plus, aku da kurg sket percaye lelaki. i mean, as kwn2 ok laa. nk jd kn bf, xpe laa. maybe someday. ade jodoh, x ke mana kn? just chill jer. kau pown same k. hahaha.

repekan. aku sakit kepale.

2010-03-29T16:56:00.005+08:00

hye. da lame x mencarut di sini. sejak da ade tumblr, mmg da jrg berblog. lgpown blog aku bkn ramai tgk pown. tapi ney tadi tetibe terpanggil utk memblog. saje mao membebel. da lame x bebel. biase laa. aku ney kdg2 ssh nk luahkn isi hati kt org lain, even bestfriend. aku takut air mata aku jd murah. mmg murah pown. tapi xnk depa nampak. aku xnk org lain ssh ati pk pasal aku. biar aku sorg2, i'll be fine.

aku skg da kerja lain. lupe nk update blog. kt maxis aritu kejap je. gaji masyuk tapi tu laa, aku sorg2. aku ckp kt mak, tapi biasa laa. mak x paham. mmg laa. org lain ssh nk paham aku. kalau family pown da x paham aku, apetah lagi kwn2. aku kerja kt MAEPS. korg tao x MAEPS tu ape? Malaysia Agro Exposition Park Serdang ok. tempat bwat MAHA tu. kalau korg xtao MAHA tu ape tatao laa aku ape nk ckp. mmg laa super katak bawah tempurung. sbb aku pown bkn jenis tgk berita, bace news penting. tapi aku tao laa jugak MAHA. da kire sebulan lebey nk dekat 2 bulan kt sini. sronok keje sini. x mcm aku keje dulu. tension je ari2 nk pi keje. haha. ok aku mmg mengade. tapi sukehati laa. diri aku kn. dulu aku rase duit tu penting. so kalau keje x best pown xpe. tapi bila da kerja, baru tao. at least aku need kerja yg bole wat aku happy in the end of the day. x kisah brape pown gaji. thx kt mak yg byk doa, n abah yg putus2 mintak tolong kt org lain. thx. even kite salu gado, selisih pendapat, adik tao. mak n abah wants the best for me.

ok stop pasal kerja. crite pasal life plak. skg, kwn2 dulu da x cam dulu. ye laa. masing2 da bz kn. ade partner masing2, ade hidup masing2, ade kareer masing2. mmg aku tao, kite x kn same mcm dulu. just nk korg smua tao, korg mmg best. thanx sbb pernah happykn hidup ney. thanx sbb tunjukkn real dunia kt aku. thanx laa utk ape2 korg pnah bwat kt aku. aku xkn erase korg dari hidup aku. mmg aku akan diam. tapi diam bkn bererti x igt kn. moga korg smua bahagia. aku tao, aku pown berubah gak. serious sejak2 da kerja ney mmg aku bz. weekend pown aku lg suke spend mase kt rumah. *kalau xde duit*. hahaha. org kate, when one door closed, ade byk lagi pintu lain terbukak. pade aku, kwn2 pown mcm tu gak. they come n go. yg masih stay ngan aku, trime kasih byk2. yg da xde pown xpe. aku tao. idop mmg camney. aku x boleh nk puaskn ati smua org. kau pown x bole nk puaskn ati smua org kn?

aritu 21.03 ude kawin. mcm best nyer. gathering jumpe cousin2, pakcik,makcik, wan smua. cewahh. mcm laa ari2 lain x jumpe. tapi sbb suasana kawin kn. tu best. tetibe rase x saba nk kawin. xde sape nk kawin ngan aku ke? aku nk ade baby cepatttt. hahaha. ok stop ckp pasal kawin. sbb aku akan talk crap. moga jodoh aku cepat sampai. aminn!~ hahaha. owh. moga uda n ija punye marriage kekal sampai akhir hayat juge. yayy.

smalam pergi ke putrajaya. snap2. actually mushi yg bwat photoshoot kt tmn botani utk didi n roni *tu kn name depa?*. sorry kalau silap. aku bad with names. cepat lupa nama. aku ngan bib sbok2 kt photoshoot dia. hahaha. tapi ok laaa kn weyy sbb ade aku ngan bib. kalau x, kau sorg2 je. kesian kau. sabo je laaa. eh. sabau je laa. hahaha. pegi ikot photoshoot pagi2. dlm 10 lebey kot. gile panas weyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. pas abes tu, pegi mkn kt ani sup utara kt presint brapa aku tatao. nampak mydin, terigt arm. *u, i da tao putrajaya nye mydin kt mana. hahaha.* si roni blanja. thx weyy. murah rezki kau. cepat kawin ngan didi yah. hihi. pas kapel da balik, kiteorg bertiga sambung photoshoot lagi kt presint 2 tu ngan alamanda. pas da sudah smua, kiteorg pergi ikut mushi balik uia sbb masing2 x saba nk amek gamba yg baru snap. ujan sgt lebat. aku sgt sakit kepala plus lapar. sorry bib aku x drive. balik rumah aku mandi, pening x ilang gak. pastu tdo. bgn tdo tadi aku mandi2, pastu siap2. daymm. aku x jumpe perfume ngan eyeliner aku. tros tade mood. actually ney kepale aku denyut2 kt blakang. sakittt.

aku ade brain tumor ke?

urmm.

ok. thx bace repekan aku.

bye.

please laa.

2010-03-12T21:50:00.001+08:00

i want my stuff back.

and i wanna be happy.

without u.

please go away.

The Bloody Beetroots feat Steve Aoki - Warp

2010-01-25T22:26:00.002+08:00

yuk. dance like hell.

woot woot.

Owl City - Fireflies

2010-01-25T19:28:00.003+08:00

ok. here's the lyrics for this song.

You would not believe your eyes

If ten million fireflies

Lit up the world as I fell asleep

'Cause they'd fill the open air

And leave teardrops everywhere

You'd think me rude

But I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe

That planet Earth turns slowly

It's hard to say that I'd rather stay

Awake when I'm asleep

'Cause everything is never as it seems

'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs

From ten thousand lightning bugs

As they tried to teach me how to dance

A foxtrot above my head

A sock hop beneath my bed

A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

I'd like to make myself believe

That planet Earth turns slowly

It's hard to say that I'd rather stay

Awake when I'm asleep

'Cause everything is never as it seems

When I fall asleep

Leave my door open just a crack

(Please take me away from here)

'Cause I feel like such an insomniac

(Please take me away from here)

Why do I tire of counting sheep

(Please take me away from here)

When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies

I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes

I got misty eyes as they said farewell

But I'll know where several are

If my dreams get real bizarre

'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe

That planet Earth turns slowly

It's hard to say that I'd rather stay

Awake when I'm asleep

'Cause everything is never as it seems

When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe

That planet Earth turns slowly

It's hard to say that I'd rather stay

Awake when I'm asleep

'Cause everything is never as it seems

When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe

That planet earth turns slowly

It's hard to say that I'd rather stay

Awake when I'm asleep

Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

Hati seorg Perempuan

2010-01-25T19:22:00.002+08:00

Jika seorang wanita itu menangis di hadapanmu,
Itu bererti dia tak dapat menahannya lagi.

Jika kamu memegang tangannya saat dia menangis,
Dia akan tinggal bersamamu sepanjang hidupmu.

Jika kamu membiarkannya pergi,
Dia tidak akan pernah kembali lagi menjadi dirinya yang dulu.
Selamanya,

Seorang wanita tidak akan menangis dengan mudah,
Kecuali di depan orang yang amat dia sayangi.
Dia menjadi lemah.

Seorang wanita tidak akan menangis dengan mudah,
Hanya jika dia sangat menyayangimu,
Tiada lagi rasa egonya,

Lelaki,
jika seorang wanita pernah menangis kerana dirimu,
Tolong pegang tangannya dengan pengertian.
Dia adalah orang yang akan tetap bersamamu sepanjang hidupmu.

Lelaki,
jika seorang wanita menangis keranamu.
Tolong jangan mempersiakannya.
Mungkin kerana keputusanmu, kau merosakkan kehidupannya.

Saat dia menangis di depanmu,
Saat dia menangis keranamu,
Lihatlah mata nya,

Dapatkah kau lihat dan rasakan sakit yang dirasakan nya?
Fikirkan laa.
Wanita mana lagi yang akan menangis
dengan murni, penuh rasa sayang,
Di depanmu dan kerana dirimu..

Dia menangis bukan karena dia lemah
Dia menangis bukan kerana dia menginginkan
simpati atau rasa kasihan.
Dia menangis,
Kerana menangis dengan diam-diam
sudah tidak mampu bagi dirinya,

Lelaki,
Fikirkanlah tentang hal itu.
Jika seorang wanita menangisi hatinya untukmu,
Dan semuanya kerana dirimu.
Inilah waktunya untuk melihat apa yang telah kau
lakukan untuknya.

Hanya kau yang tahu jawapannya..
Pertimbangkanlah, kerana suatu hari nanti
Mungkin akan terlambat untuk menyesal,
Mungkin akan terlambat untuk mohon MAAF!

Jadi hargai, jujur, setia lah pada wanita yg berada di samping mu, yg sanggup berbuat apa saja utk mu, menjaga, merindui, menyayangi, mengasihi, dirimu.. fikirkan lah..

1 hari

2010-01-22T02:09:00.005+08:00

bukan 1 hari di hari raya ya. jgn fikir bkn2. haha. hariney i mean hari kamis, mood boleh tahan laa. air mata da x murah sgt kot. mungkin sbb da keluar bersama seorg teman. teman yg baik dan sedia menemani ketika sng mahupun ssh. thanx. syg sgt kt beliau.

ok. back to tajuk. 1 hari. urmm. 1 hari x text. 1 hari diam. 1 hari tanpa berita. 1 hari x masuk page dia. 1 hari yg sunyi. heh. tapi, 1 hari terpk kn dia. no matter what, i still cant get u out of my head laaa u. grrr. xpe. hope u ok there. hope u happy. hope u getting better. hope u r thinking of me like the way i'm thinking of u now. it's all about hope. hope hope hope. n someday i'll become hopeless.

skrg da mengantok. actually mase borak ngan jaja kul 12 lebey tadi da ngantok. tapi mata tamao lelap. sgt mengade. mcm mane nk jd morning person ney? hahaha. so tadi bosan2 sbb x ramai on9, sy masuk blog2 butik. nk cari beg. tapi smua beg mahal2. tibe terpandang satu blog, mcm menarik beg tu. harga RM50. cam ok. tapi xtao lagi. nk tgk dgn lebih details lagi. cam x puas ati tgk sikit2 je. sbb ok laa kot RM50 tu. ade cod kt kajang. da mmg terbaik. am still considering it. pastu kt myspace pown ade satu beg vintage cam best. campor postage RM50. so same je laa the price. nk mintak opinion sape tatao. kwn2 da tdo. akak pown da tdo. pas beli beg ney, da laa. xde nk bazir beli ape lagi. beg skrg da nyawa2 ikan. biase laa sy. da suke satu, tu satu je laa sampai bila2. mane x usang beg tu. sian dia. syg u sgt tao. byk berjasa. byk benda slalu dismuggle di dlm beg coklat itu.

mase borak2 ngan jaja tadi, tetibe teringin biskut Famous Amos. aaaaaa. dia laa pi mention pasai biskut. grr. kn da teringin. esok nk klua ngan mak, nanti tanya dia nk pi Alamanda ke x. tapi mesti dia xmao.

"adik nk biskut tu makkkk. pleaseeeee. kite beli biskut jeee. pastu kite balik laaa. please, please, please."

best nye kalau dpt. aum2. mahal mmg laa. tapi fuhhh. kesedapan dia x terkata. buat sendri x best mcm tu laa. lalu dpn kedai pown da bole teruja kot sbb bau yg sgt sedap tu. roarr!~

sy teringin nk ade baby. sape nk kawin ngan sy? jom laaa. janji awk da ade rumah, kereta sendiri, n boleh jaga sy sampai bila2 itu da cukup. rumah penting awk. x kn kite nk duduk dgn parents sy or parents awk? sgt x privacy kn. ape nk buat mesti serba x kena. lagipown nanti nk besar kn anak2 kita, sng. sy nk bwat benda bebas tanpa ada org kata kene bwat mcm tu, kene bwat mcm ney. kereta pown penting awk. x mao laaa kereta sorong. sy pok dahi awk nanti. sng kite nk pegi mana2 nanti. xmao naik moto. awk tao x, last sy naik moto dulu sy demam. mesti awk xnk sy demam trok2 kn. nanti cane awk nk pi keje plak? mesti x sng hati. awk nanti jaga laa sy elok2. ye sy suke marah2. tapi sy marah2 sbb sy nk attention dari awk. lagipown sy marah sbb sy syg awk. kalau sy x syg awk, lantak awk laa nk bwat ape. awk, awk. awk nanti syg sy sampai bile2 ye. sy akan syg awk sampai bile2 jugak. hanya awk je ade dlm hati sy. owh and the kids juga laa nanti. sy tao mesti nanti akan ade gadoh2 nye kite. tapi awk, tu smua asam garam kn? hihi. tapi kan. ade satu soalan. SIAPA AWK?

ok. sy da start merepek sgt. saje je bebel sorg2. ckp ngan dinding. siang tadi sy ckp ngan kucing. mak ngan ian buat muke pelik. ok sy mmg pelik. si pelik yg comel.

update terbaru : sy da bazir duit beli beg. errrr.

coretan hati seorg Afza

2010-01-20T17:42:00.004+08:00

mcm2 benda berlegar dlm minda ney. mcm2 perkara yg difikirkn. dis past few days, mmg otak sgt rajin berfikir. sgt rajin mereka cipta cerita di dlm minda. sgt rajin membayangkn sesuatu yg x mungkin wujud. bila terjadi benda2 sedemikian, maka air mata menjadi murah. sgt murah. mungkin ini bkn minggu yg terbaik buat sy. dari hari isnin, hingga ke hari ini, xde ape yg berubah. owh ade yg berubah. sy x seperti dulu. sy menjadi sgt pemarah, sgt cengeng hanya dlm sekelip mata. mungkin perkara ini terjadi disebabkn oleh seseorg. tapi biarlah yg seseorang itu menjadi rahsia. just another short chapter dlm buku hidup sy.

sy merupakan seorg perindu. perindu yg setia merindui dia. but too bad. dia x mungkin akan tahu. n sy juga sudah tahu, kisah kami x akan ke mana. so better sakit skrg. time n sleep will heal the heart. sy seronok bila dia ada. sy gembira bila dengar ketawa dia. but now? kami x bertegur langsung dah. sy sptnya bercakap dgn dinding. hye dinding, i love you!~ xpe. anda byk benda nk diuruskn dlm hidup. i've to accept the fact. mungkin sbb terlalu rindu kamu, sy jd sebegini rupa. maaf. sy da biar perasaan menguasai hati. sy tidak menggunakn akal fikiran sebelum mula menyayangi kamu. mmg. sbb bila ada kamu, semua berubah. lagi sekali sy kalah. tapi xpe. sy gembira ada kamu sbg kawan.

kpd irynn, maaf utk malam tempoh hari. sy tao sy bkn kwn yg baik selama kita berkwn. maaf sy telah mengeluarkn kate carutan kepada anda. sesungguhnya mmg sy tidak menggunakn akal fikiran ketika itu. mungkin salah sy, sbb tidak memberitahu anda yg emosi sy sgt tidak stabil malam itu. hari di mana air mata sy sgt murah. sgt2 murah. maaf. itu sahaja yg mampu diungkapkn. the rest, up 2 u laaa.

kpd porous, aku rindu kau. sgt2. kite da lame x lepak. da lame x jumpe kau. thanks sbb selalu bagi nasihat kt aku. thanks sbb slalu risaukn aku. thanks sbb slalu backup aku bila ada org buat aku. kau baik sgt. i wish u all the best. moga someday kau akan dpt ape yg kau nk. kite xtao kn ape Allah da sediakn utk kita? have faith syg, have faith.

haritu sy dibebel bebel oleh emak. ye sy tao, sy bkn anak yg baik. da besar pjg masih menyusahkn mak dan abah. sy sedar tu smua. semua mmg salah sy. tapi org kata, x elok menyesal benda2 da jadi kn mak, abah? sy tao, mak abah risaukn sy. sy pown risaukn diri sy. tapi nk buat mcm mane mak, abah? da xde rezeki. bkn sy x usaha juga. urmm. mak kata mak penat dok sini. mak kata iman da besar. tahun depan form 1, da bole jaga adik2. kesimpulan ape sy nk ckp kt sini, mak kata "nanti mak abah nk balik duduk muar, adik pown ikot laa skali". ok. kawan2. paham x ape sy nk sampaikn di sini? sy x larat nk tulis lagi. air mata sy sgt murah skrg.

KEJAM!

2010-01-09T16:23:00.003+08:00

ahaha. ok. saje nk luahkn kehappyan.

tadi da dpt ckp ngan dia. happy happy. xtao laa dia happy ke x.

but sumpah i happy u dpt denga suare u. hihi.

n still dia ckp sy kejam. ye2. sorry laa. i doesnt mean it mase ckp tu.

mane tao btol2 u sakit sampai masuk spital. i pown risau tao.

iskk. mulut i mmg salu masin u. haha. roarr!~

tapi dpt ckp ngan u kejap je. xpe laa. nanti kite borak2 lagi.

u pown still x sihat sgt.

am happy talking to u.

u tc. get well soon u.

owh. u lupe kn nk wish bday i mule2. pas i ckp baru nk wish.

bwekkkk.

He said and She likes it.

2010-01-07T03:08:00.000+08:00

DIA ckp :

sy = degil tegar , keras kepala , kuat mengadu , x suke org usik brg sy , suke gado wpown benda kecik , xpuas ati kalau xdpt ape yg sy nk , sgt manja . n owh lg satu, dia kate sy kejam. sbb sy bahan2 dia mase dia sakit. siapa bwat siapa duluuuu u ??

get well soon. i wanna hear u said that 'purple' word over and over again .

heee. sorry u.

owhhh.

2010-01-02T17:47:00.000+08:00

penat laa.

penat rindu.

heh.

da laa.

xnk rindu.

sakit.

lgpown, cam tepuk seblah tgn je.

hahaha. dah laa.

seblom jd ape2.

baik stop kn?

nanti ssh.

knape tulisan kale pink?

January 1st

2010-01-01T01:09:00.003+08:00

uhh. dont ever forget the 9th January. haha.

harijadi Pemusnah Dunia. tolong laa.

please please please, i want this coming birthday will be the best celebration ever.

celebrate ke? arent u too old for all this? hahaha.

tapi kalo xde org nk celebrate tape laa. sobs. bagi hadiah cukup laa.

besarrrrrrr punyeee.

:))

or if ade sape2 baik hati nk bagi superhot bf ala2 brad pitt or johnny depp ok gak.

hahahaha. gilos. susah jage org hot ney. pffft.

hihi. boleh kau promote birthday sendiri? haha.

to u know who, if u ever read dis, ade hadiah x utk i? ngeee.

happy 2010

2010-01-01T00:52:00.004+08:00

hello people. happy new year. happy 2010. woot woot. finally it came. lol. all of us is one year older now. haha. older and should be wiser right? remember that dear afza, much2 more wiser please.

hope this year will bring gudluck to me, families, and the close friends. still no resolution for this year. coz it will be such a waste. just wanna be a better person than last year and the previous years. i wanna bring happiness to my family and maybe i can bring happiness to someone's life. hahaha. keep on dreaming babe. i just hope all the jinx has gone away now since it's already a new year.

to those i've hurt, i'm truly deeply am sorry. to those who have hurt me, i forgive u. to the old friends, imy u guys so much. to the new friends, thanx for stepping into my life and some of u already bring sunshine into it. hihi.

to those who read dis, thank you.

happy new year again, selamat tahun baru 2010.

hv a wonderful days ahead.

nk kawin, x saba nk baby. tapi bf pown xdak. hihi.

i guess, this is the end.

2009-12-28T21:04:00.002+08:00

"Bila cinta, x lagi untukku.

Bila hati, x lagi padaku.

Bila aku, x baik untukmu.

Dan bila dia, bahagia dirimu.

Aku kn pergi, meski hati x akan rela."

the words above is just a part of the lyrics.

a song call Menyesal by Ressa Herlambang.

*cries*

the lyrics i post is about me, now.

how can u be so damn cruel??

u shut me out from ur life just like that.

well i guess i'm not as good as her.

i hope u'll get her back.

and be happy with her.

sumpah x kuat skrg.

help!

i guess, this is the end.

i hate it

2009-12-23T23:56:00.003+08:00

i hate it when i'm being so helpless. cmon. dont let others pull, push u around. dont be such a cry baby. go to hell with those people. well, they are STUPID PEOPLE WITH STUPID MIND. u r much2 more intelligent, smarter than them.

dont ever let them win.

"my dear afza, i think it's time for you to close ur heart and use ur brain. dont let the heart win. remember the Paramore song "that's what u get when u let ur heart win". dont be like that. it's okay to feel sad, depressed, angry. but dont let the emotion take u over.

u r such a brave and strong girl. i know someday u can get over it. n when the day come, u'll look back and laugh at those things that had happen.

have faith.

just have faith.

and dont ever forget Him."

Maaf

2009-12-23T02:09:00.002+08:00

Maaf, i was never good enough for you.

Maaf, if i was never there for you.

Maaf, if i always being too selfish.

Maaf, i always nagged and i know how u hate it.

Maaf, i know i cant be her.

Maaf, for everything i did n said.

Maaf.

I cant be perfect.

But i can still pretend that everything's soooo damn okay and wonderful.

Maaf.

afza

231209

2.15am

Random thought

2009-12-21T00:23:00.001+08:00

close ur eyes when u r thinking of me. count to ten. n when u open ur eyes, BOOHOOO!~ i wont still be there.

goodnight.

kene tagged pulok.

2009-12-17T20:52:00.002+08:00

best. layan je. hihi. nanti tagged lagi ea?

:p

1. Kalau anda jadi orang terkaya di dunia?
mule2 shopping, pastu blanje fam esp mak abah. then simpan utk mase depan. nk kawinn. haha.

2. Kalau anda jadi orang terseksi di dunia?
urmm. mmg pown da one of da sexiest kot. haha. org kata kt mata. thx.

3. Kalau anda perlu terjun tingkat ke-100 untuk membuktikan cinta anda?
ahh. apehal? kau pown terjun skali laa.

4. Kalau orang kata blog anda teruk nak mampus?
ade kesah? it's my blog. i wrote wtv i want. boohooo!~

5. Kalau keluarga anda yang menentukan teman hidup anda. Kira perkahwinan yang ditetapkan keluargalah?
trime. trime. haha.

6. Kalau tiada lagi hari esok?
sy nk ckp sy syg smua org. n sy nk mintak maaf kt smua org.

7. Kalau orang yang anda benci berada di depan anda?
err. apehal tibe2 nk ade kt depan?

8. Kalau anda berpeluang masuk Fear Factor dan makan benda-benda pelik?
dpt duit byk ok je. kot.

9. Kalau ibubapa anda tiada pada pagi esoknya?
call laa depa tanya pi mana.

10. Kalau anda berjumpa dengan orang artis/selebriti yang paling anda minati? Nyatakan nama artis/selebriti tersebut.
johnny depp/brad pitt/keanu reeves. ok?

11. Kalau diberi lesen untuk membunuh, siapa yang akan anda bunuh?
hahahaha. gampangsssssss.

12. Kalau orang kata anda kacak/cantik?
trime kasih. smua org cantik.

13. Kalau anda ada penyakit AIDS pada usia yang muda?
oh my. confirm i'll isolate myself from others.

14. Kalau anda berpeluang menikmati makan malam yang romantik?
besttt. tepi laut nk? candle light ea?

15.Kalau anda terpaksa mengorbankan cinta anda untuk orang lain?
haih. mmg da pown. da korban da.

16. Kalau anda memenangi anugerah, dan anugerah apa yang anda inginkan?
anugerah terindah laa. xbley tao ape.

17. Kalau anda berpeluang mengahwini bangsa asing? Bangsa asing mana yang anda inginkan?
italian bley x?

18. Kalau anda terpaksa berpisah dengan orang tersayang?
kalau bley xmao.

19. Kalau ramai yang tidak puas hati dengan anda kerana mereka cemburu dengan anda?
ade kesah? sukeati korg laa. bye.

20. Mengenai orang yang tag kamu ni?
nama dia adza. dia cool. nama dia cam nama sy. type nama dia salu tertulis name dia. sbb d kt seblah f. haha. x saba nk jumpe dia.

21. Sekarang aku tag :

sape2 nk jwb, jwb laa. malas tag.

ok. bye.

i had a dream

2009-12-17T10:47:00.002+08:00

hello. gudmorning.

i had a dream of you again.

da 3,4 hari kot x mimpi.

urmm. we went shopping, pegi airport, lepak minum.

n then, i went to ur house n i met ur mom.

xtao laa btol mak u ke or org lain kn.

lepas tu family i dtg rumah u tibe2.

heh. weird huh.

mimpi mainan tidur.

wake up afza!

"imysm"

a random thought

2009-12-16T21:04:00.003+08:00

ok. nk merepek jap. mmg da lame pown pk benda ney.

just x tertulis di blog saja. heh.

"DIAM bukan bererti x rindu.
and HILANG bukan bererti x syg."

hurmm.

"Coz i will always remember you as you are right now to me"

she believed

2009-12-11T16:11:00.003+08:00

i found this thing in one of my facebook friends of friends.

well actually it's a picture. but i totally forgot to save the pixx inside my lappy.

it's a cool sentence that i believed everyone hv experienced it whether u r a He or a She.

well here it is.

s(he) be(li)ev(ed).

haha. get it? well, everyone does it right? it's funny, when u r in love, u tend to trust them 100% with all your heart. probably even more than 100%. hihi.

it hurts the most, when u know they are lying but still they doesnt want to admit it. and it still hurt, coz u know, u r so deeply, madly in love with them.

but hey, y wud u want to hurt urself so much when there are tons of fish in the water? it's only a matter of time. u will find someone, u will find that someone someday.

cewah, tu dia. afza da mula berckp.

haha.

urmm.

hey, i still miss you.

bila malam

2009-12-10T22:52:00.003+08:00

here i am. berangan. wishing for something. heh. stop dreaming afza.

nk ckp thanx. thanx byk2 kt mereka. mereka yg byk bagi support dan kata2 smgt.

cewahh. u know who u r kn?

nk list nama sorg2, ramai kot. haha.

crite ney xde ending kot. mmg xkn ade ending. yg ade cume ending of a chapter.

owh. akan ade ending laa. ending nya bila mata akan tertutup tros.

will i be remembered than?

will u miss me?

will i be forgiven for all the sins i've done?

to u there, imysm.

"And I will always remember you as you are right now."

Mimpi

2009-12-07T00:54:00.002+08:00

mimpi. org ckp mimpi tu mainan tidur je. kn?

but i dont care.

sbb dlm mimpi i jumpe u.

n i tao, skg ney. dlm mimpi je laa i ley jumpe u.

everytime i sleep, i mimpi u. sumpah.

even terlelap kejap pown i mimpi u.

sumpah i x tipu.

i rindu u sgt.

sumpah rindu.

i x pnah tipu u ape2.

imysm.

urmm.

6.12.9

2009-12-06T18:39:00.003+08:00

hariney nangis. wuuu. sbb sakit sgt da. n sbb diri ney bodo sgt.

x bole tahan lagi.

nk bwat camner eh?

i think i will just disappear. *pling*

just like that.

urmm.

Love Drunk

2009-12-02T15:55:00.003+08:00

(Hey, hey, hey, hey)

The top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit an run
And I still taste it on my tongue (Taste it on my tongue)
The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you oh so bad it hurt
But girl, in case you haven't heard

I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
I'll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it's just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
(Ok!)

Cause just one sip would make me sick
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
I'll love you forever
But now it's over

(Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey)

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We're spinning on a roller coaster ride
The world stuck in black and white (Stuck in black and white)
You drove me crazy every time we touched
Now I'm so broken that I can't get up
Oh girl, you make me such a rush

I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
I'll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now its just a bar fight
So don't call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
(Ok!)

Cause just one thing would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
I'll love you forever
But now it's over

All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
Checking into rehab is everything that we had
Didn't mean a thing to you

I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
I'll love you forever
But now I'm sober

I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
I'll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it's just a bar fight
So don't call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
(Ok!)

Cause just one sip would make me sick
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
Love you forever
But now it's over

Na-na-na na na na na na
Na-na-na na na na na na
Na-na-na na na na na na
Na-na-na na na na na na
Na-na-na na na na na na
Na-na-na na na na na na

Now it's over
(Na-na-na na na na na na)
I still taste it on my tongue
(Na-na-na na na na na na)
Now I'm sober

oye oye. hahaha.
sorry coz i didnt post the vid.
well, u can search for it at youtube, etc.
wuhuuu.
bye.

x sedih ke? xtao laa. da xde prasaan sgt da.

tibe2 kot. urmm.

haih. biaq laaa.

malas berpk dan malas berkata kata.

in case YOU read dis.

*malas nk kata apa*

heh.

bye2.

owh

2009-12-02T15:50:00.000+08:00

pulak?
sakit prot.

*wat muke*

hihi.

tu laaa. ngade2 kn.

Ungu - Saat indah bersamamu

2009-12-02T13:55:00.002+08:00

auwww.

<3
<3
<3

"harus ku akui,
aku sayang kamu,
aku cinta kamu."

Ada Band - Manusia Bodoh

2009-12-02T13:37:00.002+08:00

uhuhuh.

skian. trime kasih.

eh?

2009-12-02T00:43:00.002+08:00

errr. kisah da tamat.

fin.

ape nk ckp lagi?

xde ape laa.

tros laa brangan.

tapi ok laa kali ney. sbb xde gado ape pown.

malas nk ckp ape sgt.

dia da kata apa dia nk.

bak kate ejay, benda pown baru lagi.

hihi.

so. hurmmm.

bye.

*smug face*

urmm

2009-11-30T20:00:00.001+08:00

da mengantok. penat.

sampai suda dia x reply text.

urmm.

menyampah.

mentang2 klua ngan kwn2, u da lupe i.

ok.

xpe.

nk tdo laa.

penat.

bye.

BF

2009-11-25T22:39:00.002+08:00

hello. da lame x update blog. sbb x boleh on9. hahaha. well, da mcm2 benda jadik dis past few weeks. rase aman je diri ney x on9. aum2. but i guess, maybe a few of close friends da tao, i ade BF. ok. sape dia? someone. a few close friends da jumpe. haha. rynn, beap, ngan ejay da jumpe beliau. rynn da bagi her bless. si beap ngan ejay xtao cane. ok kot. benda ney pown jadik tibe2. x plan kot. tapi tibe2 da jadi bf, gf. ejay pown mase tu slambe tanye "da lame ke couple?". uiyooo. da speechless da. nasib baik bf yg jwb. haha. sbb kiteorg xde pown mcm "eyh. jom couple.","nk jadi gf i x?", etc. tibe2 je da terjadi gf dia. nk wat cane. tu mase tu tatao cane nk jwb soalan ejay. hihi. tgk laa sampai mane je kisah kami. sape2 bace blog ney, doakn kami happy2 slalu ye.

oye oye.

haha.

3rd nov

2009-11-05T18:11:00.002+08:00

heee. aritu 3rd nov klua lagiii. fun, fun. the best is, malam tu x mekap langsung. sgt malas. dia pown kate x kesah. so mmg malas laa bermekap. rambut pown cam aram. sikat2 camtu je. ajak rynn skali, tapi dia xmao kacao daun katenye. haha. ok. malam tu klua around 9 something. pintu mase tu smua da kunci. mase turun mak ngan abah lom tdo. haha. slambe je laa ckp kwn tibe2 dtg ajak pi minom. hihi.

da dlm kete baru plan nk pi mana. memule siang da ckp nk ajak lepak putrajaya. dia pown ok. tapi malam tu seblom klua, ujan kot. so cam pk 2,3 kali nk pegi ke x. kang sampai2 basah kot kt sana. cam rugi ja pi. tapi pegi jugak. tgk2 x ujan. yayyyy. so kiteorg pi lepak laa kt depan masjid tu. xtao presint brapa. dok lepak borak2. best owhhh. tgk org dating. pakai baju kurung. hihi. pastu tgk bdk2 kecik lari2. comel je. haa. dia kata nanti lenkali dtg nk main badminton. i ckp u main laa, ajak sape2 main. i xmaooo. bwekkk. hihi. lepak2 borak sampai kul 12 laa kot. tetibe dtg guard naik moto suruh blah. hahaha. mmg kiteorg saje tunggu nk kene halau. mase otw nk pi kete, borak2 laa lagi. pasal chris angel kot. heee. pas sampai kt kete dia tekan kunci. bunyik. tapi pintu x ley bukak. byk kali owh. muke dia da lain sket. pastu dia pandang i, i pandang dia. i pandang kete kt blakang dia lak. then i pandang plak kete kiteorg diri skg. i tgk dlm. pastu i ckp "u, tah2 silap kete kot.". automatically dia pandang blakang n tros pegi kt kete tu. i pown lari n tros masuk dlm kete. dlm kete kiteorg gelak2 laaa. nasib baik tuan empunya kete yg silap tu xde mase kiteorg diri kt kete dia. kalo x malu owh. hahaha. i da ade 2 kali experience silap kete. tu ckp camtu je kt dia. hihi. comel owh tgk muka dia da malu2 silap kete.

balik tu i ckp kt dia nk pi beli topup. so pegi laa 7e kt presint bape tatao gak. dia pown masuk gak sbb nk beli rokok. pas dia da byr duit rokok dia tanya i nk air x. i ckp xmao sbb pastu nk pi mkn. pastu dia tros klua, tunggu kt lua laa. mase i mintak topup kt bdk 7e tu dia ckp, eyh abg tu tertinggal rokok. i ckp biar laa, dia mmg camtu. i pandang dia kt luar. memule dia x prasan kot rokok da byr tu tertinggal kt kaunter. pas i angkat kotak rokok tu baru nk prasan. pastu gelak2 plak. mesti malu tersilap kete masih menebal di dada. tu otak x btol kot. hihi. dlm kete dia tanye nk mkn kt ne. i ckp kjg je laa. bkn tao sgt area putrajaya tu. kang satu hal nk carik tempat mkn.

mase otw balik kjg lagu kt radio tah ape2. i asik tuka2 je radio station sbb mmg lagu smua cam aram. da laa kejap2 dia menguap. kejap2 i plak. i tanye dia mengantok ke. kalo mengantok tros laa balik. xpe x pi mkn. dia kate x mengantok. baik owh. tapi tao laa dia mengantok. hihi. ok mase dlm kete i dok tuka2 tekan 1,2,3,4,5,6 tetibe radio mane tah ade lagu mila. i tuka laa radio lain. skali tetibe dia tuka balik, dia kate dia suka lagu tu. i da wat muke da. tao lagu tu lagu mila pown dia yg ckp. tajuk tatao laa. lagu tu pasal ape pown tatao. x igt. mmg menguap je. tetibe abah call tanye bile nk balik. i ckp jap lagi. tgh mkn. padehal baru otw nk pegi. pas abeh ckp ngan abah tetibe ade lagu akim plak. bengang tu. dia layan plak lagi. sib baik ayza da dekat. kalo x confirm tdo owh. sampai ayza lepak minum. pastu order mkn. dia mkn indo mee, i mkn megi goreng as usual. abes tu balik laa. dia keje kn the next day. kul 1 kot sampai umah. n ade lagi laa cerita lain2 tapi x paya crite kt sini.

hihi.

ok. skian bebelan utk hari ini.

bye.

november 1st. tapi hari ney da 3rd da. hihi.

2009-11-03T16:18:00.002+08:00

ok. xde ape sgt.

i met someone.

da byk kali plan nk meet, tapi x jumpe2. padehal rumah boleh tahan dekat.

heee.

cam agak klaka mase mule2 jumpe. sbb dia boleh x bwk hp knnnnnn.

bole lak tertinggalkn. patut laa mase call2, x jwb. cisdel laa u.

mase tu malas nk tunggu kt bwh, sbb tgh dupdap. 1st time kot jumpe xde org teman.

kalo x dulu2 rynn salu teman. ney rynn mlm tu ade hal jap.

pastu mase tgh tunggu dalia panggil. "auntiechu, tu kwn auntiechu ke dlm kete putih tu?".

so i intai jap dari bilik angah. bkn nampak pown kot. tapi slambe laa turun je pas amek beg n siap2 smua. mase bkk pintu nk klua nampak laa dia. tapi pastu ade lagi satu kete benti gak depan umah. i dah alamak. mane satu ney? so klua slow2 laa. mase otw nk klua dari rumah, kete lagi satu gerak pi mane tah. so i tao laaa. kete putih tu is Safuan. hahaha. da masuk kete n da gerak mase kt traffic light baru i tanya. u safuan kn? haha. bwat hal owh afza ney. yakin je.

kiteorg pegi minum. kt ayza. lepak2. suruh rynn dtg. tapi rynn kate nk pegi bangi anta kucing kt kwn dia. i tanya safuan ok x u kalo kite pegi minum kt bangi lak. dia kate ok je. what a nice guy he is. mase otw pi bangi tu, kt traffic light sungai chua stop laa. so i pandang kete seblah. nmpak kura2 mcm2 irynn punye. pastu i ke depan sikit, tgk myvi itam. tgk punye tgk skali mmg irynn daa. lagi nk teruja nampak dia. hihi. pastu rynn pi anta kucing, i ngan safuan pi carik tempat minum. kt seksyen 4 bangi. kot. kn u? ke i lupe? tah laaa. da jumpe tempat n da parking. skali rynn call. dia kate x jumpe owh tempat kiteorg da sampai ney. dia kate dia kt petronas kt 15. i bg instruction tapi dia cam ssh gak nk fhm. creds plak low. so safuan tanye i, nk pegi amek kwn u x? dia kate xpe. so pegi laa amek rynn. tapi kn. mase kt roundabout kiteorg main pusing2 3,4 kali kot. haha. xde kejeee.

pastu lepak laa kt seksyen 4 balik. x igt ape name kedai tu. lepak laa. layan tv. pasang telinga denga org explain pasal mlm tu. kiteorg plan nk wat camtu gak. amek RM1000 kt setiap sorg da laaa. hahahaha. i suruh safuan mkn. tapi dia xmao. dia kate lom lapar. sbb pastu dia kata nk lepak kjg utama. mase tu tgk tv crite deception. i ckp mamat tu wolverine. rynn kate x. i ckp balik nanti google. kalo btol name dia hugh jackman, nanti kene blanje kt chillis. hahaha. brani kerat jari laa. bak kate bib. hihi. mule2 cam ape2 je cite. last2 cam layan lak. ngeee. mase cam nk balik, i tanye safuan, u anta i balik ke? i igt dia nk suruh i balik ngan rynn. pastu dia pandang i n dia kate ye. i pown ok je laaa. mase otw balik dia tanye i nk pegi mane2 lagi x? lagi nk mrayap. kn dia kate nk pegi kajang utama. so i ckp laa x. mase nk sampai dia ckp balik nanti dia topup. so kite msg2 ye. dia ckp nanti dia share creds sbb dia tao creds i mase tu tinggal 3 sen. hahaha.

dlm 20 mins pas sampai ruma kot. dpt laa creds dia share tu. tapi RM1 je. ok laa kn. dia pown dlm 15pax. sampai ariney ade lagi creds owh. hahaha. mlm pas balik tu kiteorg msg2, pastu on9. the next morning dia call kul 7.30. gile pastu da x boleh tdo. lagi pown ngah sakit pwot piyed. haha. ariney jumpe kot. xtao laa. ikot dia laaaa. kalo dia nk klua nanti dia bgtao.

ok. tu je.

saje bebel2.

sbb serius happy owh haritu.

thx u.

Hello Enche

2009-10-30T16:22:00.002+08:00

awk ney selfish. tao x?

i hate u. iskk. pelik2 je.

knape xnk bagi sy pegi dari awk?

awk kn da ade someone.

dulu kate bile da ade someone, nk bagitao sy.

sampai suda tade.

sy tao awk suke someone pown dari org lain.

yg sampai awk mara2 sbb dia bgtao sy.

sy tao awk da ade someone pown dari org lain.

tapi pelik sbb tatao sape awk nye someone tu.

meluat owhhh.

awk da knape? awk kate awk lonely kalo sy x msg.

knape?? someone awk tu x msg ke? x call ke?

heyy. pening laa.

sometimes sy rase mmg patut sy tinggalkn awk jap for a while.

da 2 kali kn sy ckp camney.

but cam dulu, on the next day awk carik sy balik.

pastu bagi ayat "pelik" bile sy cam malas nk layan.

awk, awk. complicated owh.

da laa x pegi smayang jumaat tadi.

ahahaha.

mengade owh.

ok. skian cetusan rasa dari hati seorg yg bernama afza.

bye.

Dry your eyes

2009-10-26T22:07:00.001+08:00

When I met you my eyes were dry,
Now all that I want to do is cry.
You took my heart and broke it in two,
I only wanted to be with you.
I am always happy when I’m with you,
I thought that you were happy too.
But I guess that it wasn't meant to be,
So I’ll stop dreaming of you being with me.
Now I lay in my bed and cry,
Hoping that someday my eyes will dry.

The One

2009-10-26T22:04:00.000+08:00

"I used to think that he was the one
The one I would grow old with
But I guess not
I used to think he would be the one I would go to bed with every night
and wake up beside every morning
But I guess not
I used to think he was the one to hold me tight and tell me
everything will be alright
The one who would never do my wrong
I used to think he was the one
But I guess the jokes on me"

Roni St.Clair

The End

2009-10-26T21:51:00.002+08:00

another chapter da abes.

still no happy ending.

jgn sedih2 ye afza.

jgn emosi sgt.

wish him to be happy.

always happy with the one he chose.

"That if the moon had to runaway

And all the stars didn't wanna play

Don't waste the sun on a rainy day

The wind will soon blow it all away"

wtv!~

2009-10-23T21:26:00.001+08:00

ok. ariney abeh duit.

pegi tesco bwk bdk kesayangan.

byk berabih kt dia ja.

hurmm.

ok lagi.

hariney x happy.

sgt x happy.

da laaa.

penat.

Hello Boyfriend

2009-10-21T21:26:00.002+08:00

ok. da happy laa minggu ney.

agak happpy laa.

lagipown da malas nk pedulik pasal benda2 kecik yg tah ape2.

n owhh.

no special reason laaaa. just feeling happy.

yayy!~

thx pade yg berkenaan yahh.

Is He The One For You?

2009-10-20T02:37:00.001+08:00

hihi. i likeeeee this one.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test76.aspx

Your relationship is moving forward. Just don't trip over.

You and him would be typical young lovers. It would not be all sweet and romantic if you got together, sometimes you would argue or get confused, but those elements would only make your relationship more exciting. At the moment you are probably assuming that he likes you, but sometimes you might not be so sure. Don't worry, you can be sure that he also feels the same way. When both of you sense special feeling towards each other, your relationship is certainly growing. What you should do is try to express your feelings a little more and learn more about him.

<3

Personality Test 2

2009-10-20T02:32:00.002+08:00

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx

orait just click on the link above yah.

hihi.

i got mine.

Here is the analysis:

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you. *hihi*

2. You don't really care about other people's feelings. *so true* You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Personality Test 1

2009-10-20T02:25:00.002+08:00

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

anyone interested to do this test, just click on the link below yah.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Bodoh kot.

2009-10-19T04:36:00.004+08:00

ok. da pukul 4.38am. cehh. masih x tdo. supposed patutnye da tdo. sbb japgi mak ji n the family nk dtg. tapi x ley tdo. nk wat cane. nk bebel2 jap ney. sbb ade terase meluat tibe2. hurmm. mcm mane nk start ye?

owh ok. gamba kt atas ney. cam ade kene mengene laaa dgn ape nk bebel ney. boleh x, kalau nk emosi tu, jgn emosi melampau? meluat ok. x payah laa asik nk tuka2 stat nk bitao how u feel. satu cukup laa. org paham da. semak ok mate aku pagi2 ney membace stat kau. lagi plak, kau tu da besar, bkn bdk2. lagi tua dari aku ok. kalau org dulu2 da kawin, by the time umo kau da ade 4,5 org anak. cmon laaa. grow up. it's ok to feel in love, to feel hurt, to feel the pain, to feel rejected. tapi jgn laa melampau sgt sampai nk bitao kau pnah cube BUNUH DIRI. ok. dah cool laaa kn nk bunuh diri tu. mesti ramai kesian kn? pathetic ok! klaka. nk bunuh diri sbb life x fair. life x treat kau the way kau nk. hellooooooo!~ of course laaa. tu laa name nye life. kau nk life yg kau impikn, buat byk ibadat. bile mati nanti masuk syurga, insya allah. tapi pk nk bunuh diri je, aku tatao laa caner kn.

lagi satu, kalau org da tanak kt kau, da laaaaaa. move on weyhhh. bukan ade sorg manusia je dlm dunia ney. juta2 weyh. lagi plak, kau kn faymes. x yah laa sbb sorg manusia da rijek kau, kau nk emosi. eeeeeeeee. gile meluat weyh. sbb kau da berumo. blajo tinggi2. tapi haprakkkkkk. gune laa otak lu yg genius tu mat. buat something tu, jgn ikot sgt kate hati. bile emosi, setan sng dkt. tu kau asik nk bunuh diri je. aku tao laa kau mmg suke benda2 ke arah kesetanan ney. bile dpt dugaan hidup, igt laa ALLAH. ok?? aku pown x perfect. sdg cube merubah diri sikit2 laa ney. jgn laa menjadi bodoh dengo ckp setan tu.

be positive laa dlm hidup. mmg kite xkn dpt ape yg salu kite nk. even kalau kite da dpt ape kite nk tu pown, x semestinya ia/dia akan selamenye ngan kite. ye x wahai pembaca blog sekelian? sekelian ke sekalian eyh? tah laaa. da ngantok ney. da dkt kul 5 weyh. japgi subuh. ade kah sy patut melelapkn mate atau pown tunggu subuh baru tdo? adoyaiiii. tatao. ney smua kau punye pasal laaa mat. kalau aku sound kau bute2, mesti kate aku budak kecik. xtao ape2. ssh laaa kwn ngan lu.

ok da malas laaa nk taip lagi. kang lagi merepek.

pade yg berkenaan. cube2 laa ubah diri.

everyone deserve to be happy.

ok, bye.

Ok. Rindu.

2009-10-18T04:03:00.002+08:00

da kul 4 pagi. ujan lebat. cam da ngantok.
tapi nk tulis2 kt sini jap.
i miss you.
nk ckp ney jer.
seriously am missing u dear.
hope u feel the same way too.
tapi kalau x pown, nk wat caner.
sy sape jer kn.
kdg2 rase cam we have that something, kdg2 rase cam tepuk seblah tgn pown ade.
tah laa. pk2 pown, i'm the one that will be hurt in the end nanti kn.
so wtv laa.
hope u r happy there boo.

Grey Sky Morning - Cinta Gila

2009-10-17T04:40:00.006+08:00

Saat Indah Bermula...
Terasa Bahagia...
Cinta Yang Lama Terhenti,
Berputik Kembali...
Ada Yang Menghampiri,
Ku Tidak Peduli...
Cinta Ini Cinta Gila,
Untuk Kita Berdua...

C/O
Woo
Tiada Yang Dapat Menghalangnya
Kita Berdua Terus Bercinta,
Selamanya...
I Cant Live..
I Cant Live oh Without You My Baby..
Just Only You My Lover..
With Love...

Hanya Kau Ku Miliki,
Yang Tiada Ganti...
Bukan Mimpi Sudah Pasti,
Jiwaku Berseri...
Ada Yang Menghampiri,
Ku Tidak Peduli...
Cinta Ini Cinta Gila,
Untuk Kita Berdua....

Download Grey Sky Morning - Cinta Gila here
comel owhh dis song. n of course. i dont own any of it.
just enjoy the song.

boohoooo!~

2009-10-17T02:45:00.014+08:00

you're just another phase, another chapter blablabla.
now the story with u is over.
thx for the memories laa mat eventhough they weren't so great.
hope u r happy with your fucking life.
it was so niceeeeeeeeeee to know you.
boohoooo!~

yours sincerely,

Afza
___________________________________________________________

ok. kisah kt atas sudah tamat. itu utk mamat yg owh-i-totally-have-forget-your-name-now.

now sudah sedar sikit. yg si dia tetap ade. he always there.
wpown kdg2 dia salu kene marah sbb sy tgh jeles. salu layan sy merepek repek ckp itu dan sini sbb tgh marah.
dia tetap sabar layan prangai sy yg tah ape2 ney.
so afza, sila laa sedar. jaga beliau elok2. appreciate laaaa dia ye.
hihi.

risau.

2009-10-17T00:40:00.005+08:00

hee. mcm2 jadik dis past few days. bwat tension je.

pk tu, pk ney. tapi dia ckp jgn pk bukan2. dia x layan da si toot tu.

i should trust him kn? tapi percaye bute2? tah laaa.

sng percaya org kot. tah laa. tah laa.

dia sungguh2 explain. malas nk gado. sbb dia x sihat.

ya tuhan, tolong laa. jauh kn laaaaaa pompuan tu dari hidup kami.

amin!~

n awk, jaga diri elok2. awk keje kuat sgt, tdo plak x cukup. tu laa x sihat.

*risau*

perasaan yg best

2009-09-17T17:39:00.002+08:00

harini happy. xtao kenape. tadi klua jap ngan mak pi tesco n beli itu ini. mase bayo kt kaunter tu, sian tgk kakak tu. muke penat abis. so pas bayar, i wish slamat hari raya kt dia. dia pandang i n tros ceria muka dia. n she wish me slamat hari raya jugak. hihi. balik pegi param kt tesco. tapi x byk sbb ujan kot. n owh. bak kate mak, kn da dkt nk raye. slalu nk lupe. hihi.

ok pastu pegi param kt taman mesra. beli roti goreng. wuhuuu. terbaikk. da ngidam dari last week. nk balik tadi nampak sorg pakcik ney. kesian. mintak sedekah. lagi brape hari nk raye kn. mane anak2 dia ye? kalau ade anak2 dia, mmg mcm cilaka laa korg. biarkn bapak mintak sedekah. so tadi i bagi laa duit sedekah kt pakcik tu. happynya muka pakcik tu. x boleh describe ngan kata2. i pown tros jadi happy tgk pakcik tu happy. tibe2 terfikir, dgn tolong org lain kite bole jadi happy kn?

so pasney afza, jgn selfish sgt ye. biar je ape org lain nk buat, just live life with ur own way.

pade mereka yg beragama islam yg baca blog i ney, although kite knal atau x, i nk wish SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI. moga raya taon ney disambut dengan penuh ceria ya.

Selamat Ulang Tahun Kelahiran awk

2009-08-14T22:34:00.001+08:00

*wink*

happy 25th bday enche comel.

G.I Joe

2009-08-12T22:28:00.003+08:00

100809 - tgk G.I Joe. besttt. pas kerja tros pecuttt pegi mid. wuhuuu. sampai kt kul 9. sampai2 tros call dia.

sy : awk kt mane?
awk : blakang.
sy : *pusing blakang sambil ckp on the phone*. haaa. sy nk pi toilet jap.
awk : pegi laa.
sy : nk amek ticket dulu x?
awk : xpe laa.. pegi laa toilet dulu.
sy : ok. *pusing depan balik sambil mematikn talian*

we still on the phone although da nampak n facing each other. trime kasih kepade sistem telekomunikasi ya.

hahaha. ok. kuar toilet pi check tiket booked, tapi da expired. damnnn. show 9.10 ade seat depan2 je. check show 9.40 pown same gak. tapi ade couple seat kt blakang. tanya dia, dia x kisah. so amek je laa couple seat tu. ley pi mkn dulu. 'sy laparrr awk, mkn dulu ye?'. hehe. pas mkn tros wygg. lambat kot start. kul 10 baru start. blablabla. pastu balik. tdoooooo.

and owh. dia lupa amek baju dia lagi. cett.

Porous

2009-08-01T01:15:00.002+08:00

thx weyh lepak sesame.

ily!~

nanti aku load gambo.

Happyyyy!!

2009-07-30T19:03:00.004+08:00

hehe. smalam dpt gaji. ariney shopping. adoyai. nearly abeh 500. gilerrrrrrr. tapi mmg terbaik. balik keje awal. sue mmg terbaik. pastu pi sunway pyramid ngan wan. bdk2 lain da x nampak btg idong. around 3.30 kot wan blah sbb dia nk pi ou jumpe dak2 streamyx. i sorg2. x kesahhhhhhhh. janji ade duit. shopping. tgk2 jam. ayokk. nearly 5 o'clock. cepat2 laa balik sbb nk lalu federal hiway. lalu federal sbb x yah bayor tol. terbaikkkkkkkkkkk. balik singgah jusco lak. beli itu dan ini dlm 50 abeh. skiannnn.

eyh.

kalo tao, dari dulu keje.

i love youuu!!! *2 whoever read dis*

tapi sedey sbb x dpt jumpe al-azwan. sbb dia bz.

L.o.V.e <3

2009-07-27T20:21:00.003+08:00

Afxa Tron : and 1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and me and you will live happily ever after. giggles

i dont know

2009-07-27T00:30:00.002+08:00

pelik

2009-07-19T18:31:00.000+08:00

pelik pelik. actually bercampur aduk da feeling dlm ney. confused da. mane patut i percaya. A or B. A bwat mcm x pedulik bile i ckp pasal B. dia backup B. ney pown tadi dia tanya, tgh borak dgn B ke. bile i ckp x, tros dia diam. maybe btol laa cam B ckp, depa ade something. tapi A xnk confess. dia kata suke hati i laaa nk pk ape. ye laa.. dia da ade B. btol x? in fact, A mmg salu wat acuh x acuh. mcm mane x pk bkn2. da dia pown wat camney. i nk cerita kt sape skrg? xtaoo.

this picture can explain a thousand of words kn?

wuhuuu!~

2009-07-19T11:13:00.000+08:00

it's been ages since i last wrote something here.

well, i've been busy.

so busy till i forget that i have a blog. lol.

busy dgn study merangkap final project yg menyakitkn otak. pffft!~ luckily itu smua da abes. and i just graduated last week (july 13th) at pwtc. wuhuu. best owhh. x payah nk sakit2 otak pk nk tuka tajuk asgmt watsoever. x sangke sronok rupenye bergraduate naik atas pentas amek skrol.

after abis study bulan 3 ritu, i cari kerja. but with our economy recession now, sgt ssh nk dpt kerja ok. da laa ssh nk dpt kerja, org da kerja pown diberhentikn. so one day i went to career fair at dataran, n there's a lot of booth there. but byk smua train n place. the one that government buat tu. pegi training a few months, then baru dpt kerja. i joined this train n place with a company name scicom. it's a MSC company. sbb join bkn ape, training dia 2 bulan je. hahahaha. kalo yg lain2 tu ade 3 bulan, 4 bulan, 6 bulan. of course dpt elaun 500 a month. tapi with 500 a month, sgt x cukup.

ok masuk ke cerita training with scicom. my training place kt stamford college, pj. x jauh laa dari rumah. ramai kate jauh. ye laaa. mentang2 kajang ney kg. sobs. heee. sronok sgtttttt mase training ney. sumpah sronok. one of the best experience i ever had. cewahh. trainer smua gile2. dak2 training pown smua happening. BATCH 17 the best. i love you!! owh i miss them already especially rizman. cewahh. in fact, our batch was the most happening and LOUD there. slalu nk kene marah ngan trainer sbb bising2. hehe. byk sgt benda dpt mase training ney. my confidence level of course laa blom tinggi sgt, but da ade perubahan dari mase dulu2. at least, for now, i x takut nk ckp something tu kuat2 although benda tu merepek/salah/crap. we learn from mistakes kn? at least i tried. dari org lain diam jer.

tapi dlm mase busy training2 ney, i rase cam hilang. hilang something. maybe we r just too busy with our life. busy managing life in our own way. i ngan hidup i, dia ngan hidup dia. n skrg mmg da totally lain. bkn totally spies ok. rindu. dgn bff pown camney gak. dia lagi laa. da start keje. work on shift. biase laa. mmg ssh sgt nk jumpe.
kn awk kn? serious rindu zmn dulu2. baring kt basket ball court, tgk bintang, pi laut tgh2 mlm etc. *sigh*

ok back to my story kt scicom, on the last day of training, gurit masuk klas n ckp tomorrow there will be interview with maxis. and i was like 'omg wat the tuutt! cepat kot'. memule rase cam malas sgt nk pegi. tapi angeline da warning, nanti dia delete resume sape2 yg byk songeh. so the next day tu, pegi laaa kt scicom again dgn pakai baju kurung ijao *sbb interview ngan maxis*. hehehe. mmg dup dap abis mase tu. supposed start interview 9.30. tapi rase awal kot interview ritu. i was the 1st candidate sbb yg lain smua xmao. hahaha. dak2 training lain smua siap laa salam2. 'zaza gudluck. zaza gudluck. blablabla'. name org maxis tu naga. so interview2, seblom klua dia tanya pasney i nk pi mana. i ckp laa i'll be around here, with my friends. masuk2 klas balik, kwn2 smua tanya camna blablabla. i cerita laa everything. pastu dpt call tah nombor sapa2. jawab2 rupa nya org manpower. actually manpower ney yg pilih sape keje ngan maxis. and maybe it's my luck, i got the job. wuhuuu. serious rase mmg sgt2 bernasib baik sbb da dpt keje. yayyy!~

and now, i currently work as Customer Care Consultant with MAXIS at sunway. yayyy again!~ i'd try my best. gile smgt kn letak logo maxis ney. let's see in a few months. whether sy masih boleh bertahan atau tidak. wish me luck ya whoever who had read this. well, ini 1st kerja yg rasa betol2 formal. dulu rasa cam main2 je sukehati. hehehe.

Malam bulan

2009-02-15T03:54:00.000+08:00

isn't it lovely? chantek sgt malam tu bulan. it's not full moon. tapi tetap chantek mcm biasa. mase malam ney kami pi pj. saja lepak2. waaa. da seminggu x jumpa depa. rindu. aum2!~

i'm so attracted to the moon. bintang juga. sng crita apa2 kait dgn langit mmg best. kalau dpt baring kt padang tgk langit pown da puas ati. best tao tgk awan gerak2. aritu gerhana matahari gila excited. tapi last2 sedey. x dpt tgk sbb ade awan gelap. haih.

xpe laaa. xde jodoh kn. katenye next gerhana matahari is next year. so tunggu jer laa mase tu.

yayyy.

happy birthday

2009-02-08T16:29:00.000+08:00

selamat harijadi wahai si bekas pujaan hati.

selamat ulangtahun kelahiran yg ke 23.

tetiba terigt lagu ratu tu.

'tapi kini dia menghilang, dan x tahu entah di mana.'

mcm tu laa awk.

tapi di mana awk berada, sy harap awk akan selalu happy.

happy, happy, happy.

haih.

setiap tahun i'll create a special blog for u wahai si bekas pujaan hati.

i miss you.

stuff

2009-02-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna sell some stuff. but still havent decide what i'm gonna sell.

lol.

AFI - Killing Caustic

2009-02-07T21:41:00.000+08:00

So, I'm feeling much worse now.
You're better, you're better.
Your designer drug
won't work, won't work for me.

Connect to a three volt.
I hope your battery dies.
How could you run
on such, on such voltage?

All the same, I remain the one to blame and I'm
demonized, purified, justified as you let yourself show.

So now you'll love these screams,
what's left of me. (Don't speak)
Love these screams like I do. (my name)

As the infinite stops cold
just nine and the six are gone.
Guess I was the one to
ride that, ride that dirty ride
that is turning too fast now
I ca-ca-cannot cannot hold on
but at this pace,
who'd want, who-who would want to?

All the same, I remain the one to blame and I'm
demonized, purified, justified as you let yourself show.

So now you'll love these screams,
what's left of me. (Don't speak)
Love these screams like I do. (my name)

Don't ever speak my name.

Don't ever speak my name again
Don't ever speak it
Don't ever speak my name again
Don't speak
Don't speak

DON'T
SPEAK
MY
Don't speak my name.

So, now you'll love these screams,
what's left of me. (Don't speak)
Love these screams like I do. (my name)